sink slow darling

idealfacade @ 2008-09-02T21:20:00

2008-09-03T04:20:34Z

so i guess i played right into the marketer's hands because i am watching the 90210 spinoff that bears the same name and lo and behold I actually like it.

now, it bears a whole lot of resemblance to the contemporary Gossip Girl but I think the West Coast has the better show. maybe because it doesn't have kristen bell's obnoxious voiceover of "you know you love me xoxo gossip girl" (honestly, it made me cringe and feel embarrassed that bell went from veronica mars to that) and instead has the sorta goth girl doing the blog.

the main character has a scary looking anorexic body but i like her a whole lot better than blake lively's consistent cardboard performance.

if 90210 had leighton than it'd be full of win.

plus, i am a complete sucker for those fandoms that contain their past characters and they still have drama from their ~past~ though they have apparently "moved on." bwhahahaaa.

idealfacade @ 2008-06-09T19:24:00

2008-06-10T02:28:30Z

i have a marilyn monroe-like pimple on my upper lip. let me tell you that it is a lurker and is waging a convenient war inside the fat that is my upper lip. stop the hurting! i will get enough of it tomorrow when i take my two finals of which i am inadequately prepared (but aren't i always).

anyway, today i made an acute observation. if i were to compare my 19th year so far to any literary source it'd be HP and the Order of the Phoenix. yeah, i know. this is duly emphasized by the fact that i constantly type in all caps in my text messages only because T9 can suck on saggy balls.

idealfacade @ 2008-06-01T19:33:00

2008-06-02T02:39:16Z

i assume all of you have seen the twilight first completed scene. hence, my un-cut comments.

the movie looks to be complete shit. there, i don't think i can summarize it any better. kstew has the emotions of a ten year-old cardboard box. actually, i care not to insult the box.

and the villian? i find myself more scared of my dirty hamper than that (speaking of that... must do chores).

i feel... nothing. but i actually am surprised to say that i did have SOME expectations for the movie and they are dashed. of course that won't stop me from being there, in line, during the midnight release. why? because smeyer owns my wallet.

also, i am thinking of watching the mtv awards. i was planning for this to be The Big Thing for today because my mom refuses to let me out of my cage/house. but i made a deal with myself that i'll finish revising my CRAP essay and read all my material for this one class before the allotted time.

so, i was on a roll, doing this like five hours ago and as a reward for the good work, i decided to take a break. a break that has lasted five hours. clearly, i am way behind. shitshitshit. why does this always happen?

at least i have smirnoff.

idealfacade @ 2008-05-23T08:55:00

2008-05-23T15:56:37Z

my boyfriend volunteered himself to read twilight and watch the movie with me when it comes out.

question: should i be concerned?

idealfacade @ 2008-04-26T19:41:00

2008-04-27T02:44:48Z

if you know me at all you know that i hate the phone. actually, if you bothered to look at my profile you'll know either because you are a creeper or were once a creeper. either way, i don't use it.

now, knowing this (now), can someone explain how i surpassed my phone bill expectancy by like $150.00 more than it should be?

OMG!!! *flails* i don't even know what to do or say to the parental units.

why is my boyfriend ruining my life?!?!?!!

if i drop off the face of the earth it's because my mother sold my kidney to pay for my bill and i'll be recovering.

idealfacade @ 2008-04-18T09:13:00

2008-04-18T16:16:13Z

so my boyfriend decides to be all ~*~cute~*~ and shit by deciding to surprise me by coming one day earlier then planned.

there i am, expecting to get a starbucks and he pops out of the corner with his "hello beautiful" and WHAT DO I DO???

my first instinct? just guess, it's a killer.

i freaking grab my bag and whack his body with it.

OMG??? i don't even... when did i become an abusive person? WHO DOES THAT???

idealfacade @ 2008-04-14T23:20:00

2008-04-15T06:21:18Z

final skins episode....

OMG.

WHAT? WAS? THAT?

please discuss because i can't form coherent thoughts right now.

spoilers are obviously in the comments.

idealfacade @ 2008-04-02T07:38:00

2008-04-02T15:43:59Z

I turned 19 on March 31st. And I feel complete and utter apathy. Why, you ask? I don't know but my first few moments of this age were spent at a freaking gas station. What does that mean for my upcoming year? I told my boyfriend that my gas is not going to get pumped and he just gave a disappointed chortle.

now, you guys, please interpret this.

also, participate in another vain meme of mine. jacked from the wonderful anythingbutgrey:

Based entirely on my personality, hunt down a "played by" who you think would best represent me. Reply here with the picture or link.

This person may be male or female depending on whether *I* strike you as male or female.

doitbecauseiamcuriousastohowfuckedupyouguysthinkiam.

and, has anyone seen this?

unassisted childbirth.

yes, you read that right. freaking UNASSISTED CHILD BIRTH.

i am just in AWE of this woman. what what? feaking hero, right there.

idealfacade @ 2008-02-18T22:54:00

2008-02-19T06:56:17Z

HOLY MOTHER EFFING LAWD!!!

http://community.livejournal.com/ohnotheydidnt/20558361.html?#cutid1

I KNEW THERE WAS A REASON WHY I WASN'T A COMPLETE VAG AND DIDN'T SLEEP EARLY DESPITE THE FACT I WAKE UP AT THE CRACK ASS OF DAWN FOR SCHOOL TOMORROW.

THIS IS LIKE THE FIRST TIME I HAVEN'T BEEN BLASE ABOUT THE TWILIGHT MOVIE. YES, I'M LATE ON THE UPTAKE APPARENTLY.

!!!

WORK IT OUT, BBGIRL/CEDWARD.

ETA:

ok, i am now processing this w/o the use of CAPS (even though they are a fav of mine).

1) JASPER = austin from Project Runway. y/y?
2) i want carlisle's grandpa cardigan
3) esme didn't redeem herself from when i first heard she was cast as her. what a bore and she's the only one who isn't FIERCE in the 2nd picture.
4) nikki reed = anna paquin (whatevertf her last name is)
5) emmett > YOU AND EVERYONE ON THIS PLANET ('cept for henry and steven).
6) alice is actually pitch perfect.

AGREE WITH ME NOW.

idealfacade @ 2008-02-18T13:09:00

2008-02-18T21:11:29Z

shower epiphany number 4356r7897908:

i think, on president's day, a majority of things should just cost $1.01 so georgie and abe can get some action together.

i know it's not all that plausible, but it's america's otp, bitches.

at least make food that amount.

what do you all think? brilliant? y/y.

idealfacade @ 2008-02-13T14:06:00

2008-02-13T22:11:32Z

since, apparently tomorrow is v-day and that means lots of chocolate and kisses, i felt we need to extend this virtually.

deadduck008 made a wonderful intro to this so i hope she doesn't mind me c/ping her. but, ali, you know i ship you with words, so what did you expect?

Remember when you were in those awkward post-puberty years and when it came around to Valentine's Day you were feeling kind of down because you thought no one really thought you were that special and then you opened your locker on that terrible day and there was a rose waiting for you and you found out someone cared after all?

It didn't happen to me either.

BUT NOW IS YOUR CHANCE.

LOVE MEME

give people some loving and maybe a little rubbin'. ;D

turn up the marvin gaye, people.

idealfacade @ 2008-02-10T10:11:00

2008-02-10T18:18:40Z

ok, let's get to the point:

This? Looks like crap and yet I will watch. Why, why do you do this to yourself Sandra, you ask? Because there is a reason why the mute button exists.

Joe Jonas' eyebrows rival D-Rad's in the category for best impression of a catepillar. nd, I know it no longer matters, but that girl looks like what the Bella in my head does. I know, no longer relevant, but this is true.

Also, Aaron Carter came up on my shuffle. I admit, I had like a 10 second crush on him in 5th grade. Who else? Show of hands.

From this:

to

oh, how the mighty fall.

you know, ok, maybe i am a little crazy and full of estrogen, but if i was drunk... i'd probably hit it (and quit it). if my booze erases his meth maks.

yes, i am a proper lady.

idealfacade @ 2008-02-04T00:27:00

2008-02-04T08:30:49Z

so, i keep going back, reading entries lightning-fast, telling myself if i read all of them then i won't have anything to procrastinate on and i can proceed on with my essay.

yeah, what retarded logic.

i think i am setting off for my first ever all-nighter. ~*~cElEbRaTiOn~*~

SAY IT ISN'T SO!

god, i am really sleepy but i refuse to knockout when i still have academic business to settle.

i used to kick ass and take names with this stuff. now i am just not.

uhg.

~inspirational~ music, please? something to keep me awake? is anyone even up at this moment?

holy hell!

idealfacade @ 2008-01-02T05:39:00

2008-01-03T01:35:10Z

i would like to direct you guys towards the new steven strait shoot:

http://community.livejournal.com/stevenstrait/25705.html?#cutid1

i don't care if you don't know who he is or if you're not a jacob black fan.

we all like the pretty and he is like the jackpot of eye!orgasms.

yes.

i feel a lady!boner coming on.

ETA: it kind of looks like Jacob/Rosalie, amirite twilightawry?

ETA2: he's ENGAGED??? wah wah. cue my teeny bopper heart breaking. lol.

idealfacade @ 2008-01-02T04:10:00

2008-01-03T00:07:21Z

Ok.

Am I like the only person in the world that likes these sweaters?

http://community.livejournal.com/hp_icons/6732824.html?#cutid1

Honestly? Am I losing the very last shreds of ~fashion consciousness~ that I retained? And, I'm not kidding about liking them, my cheap ass would even pay $40.00 for these.

Yeah, I didn't expect this to be my first post of 2008, but I felt it was urgent to chronicle another episode of how it's me against the world. The teenager in me, what can I say?

idealfacade @ 2007-12-14T22:30:00

2007-12-15T06:53:19Z

Meet my current lover, bbs:

HEY ARNOLD! is just one of those shows that you watch years later and it's still funny. And, I get the jokes that I used to just scratch my head at a few years ago. As in, the days when I was not aware of a thing called ~humor~ and ~intelligently-phrased barbs.~

Yes folks, I have come a long way since I went from picture books to chapter ones. Give me a golden star!

Anyway, I am a wit!whore. If you can form a clever joke, you'll have me metaphorically humping your leg in no time. Serious.

I don't lie about these things.

Now, I know the majority of you watched this show. Well, I consider it my full-time mission to rekindle your affair with it.

Because I want to read fanfic and discuss this with more than myself and my ten year old sister (do you see how low I stoop for conversation?).

Are you now comprehending my DIRE NEED???

Ok, I'm sure you're pondering: this bitch is crazy. Too right you are my friend! But this is the place to *be.*

Don't miss out. Here's a preview to the promised land.

Hop on the train, bb ~~and ride it~~.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q5vuXKkUL4c

CLICK. ON. IT.

IT'S FOR YOUR OVER ALL WELL BEING.

idealfacade @ 2007-12-11T16:14:00

2007-12-12T00:17:16Z

you know what amuses me?

i don't know how many people on my flist are henry cavill fans, but i am. i am a staunch supporter of sex gods, what can i say? anyway, back in the day, henry was a favorite and rumored to play cedric diggory in GOF. but then that didn't happen.

DEVASTATION MANIFESTED.

now, henry was up for edward (still in my ~eyes~) and then the role once again goes to Robert (which i don't mind AT ALL ♥).

so, my poor bb is constantly being showed up. he will break out soon, though. spread your wings, henry, and flyyyyyyy!!!

idealfacade @ 2007-12-11T15:40:00

2007-12-11T23:44:49Z

i think i just made up a political theory. lollolol. it might be a fallacy and i seriously don't even have a point anymore. did i just say "it's a cake analogy"????

omg. i am made of fail.

officially? this is the hardest essay i have ever written. even though i've been writing for hours, i still can't get seven pages!!! this. is. pathetic.

oh, robert pattison/edward, sex me up and forget my worries. plz.

BTW? listening to chopin's "funeral march" is very telling of how this is going.

FICMIX - PIECES (THE MIX)

2007-12-10T18:56:03Z

I did promise this, didn't I? ;D

This is a mix dedicated solely to those almost-happened's, the almost-worked-out's, the almost-enough's, the almost-were-realized's, and the always-never-occured's.

These are their stories:

01. Don't Cry Out (Shiny Toy Guns)
I don't get you . . .
I can't forget what you've forgotten
all along
I've never been so alone. . .

02. The Pieces Don't Fit Anymore (James Morrison)
I've been twisting and turning,
In a space that's too small.
I've been drawing the line and watching it fall,
You've been closing me in, closing the space in my heart.
Watching us fading and watching it all fall apart.

03. Best Friend (The Dandy Warhols)
Best friend
I'll see you in the end
Broken for a while
But maybe we can bend
Best friend
Im feeling out of line
And filling up the time again
I'll see you in the end
I will again

04. (I Can't Seem To) Make You Mine (The Clientele)
I can't seem to make you mine
Through the long and lonely night
And I try so hard, darling
But the crowd pulled you away

05.Red (Elbow)
You burn too bright
You live too fast
This can't go on too long
You're a tragedy starting to happen

06.The No Seatbelt Song (Brand New)
It's only you, beautiful.
Or I don't want anyone.
If I can choose, it's only you.
But how could I miscalculate...
perfect eyes will have perfect aim.
If I can choose, it's only you.

07.The Fantasy (30 Seconds To Mars)
Maybe tonight we can forget about it all
It could be just like heaven
I am a machine
No longer living, just a shell of what I dreamed
(Yeah, yeah, yeah)

08.The Last Time He Saw Dorie (Copeland)
He's in love with tragedy, in love with tragedy
She was a wreck, but he loved her
She was a wreck, but so was he

09. What Have You Done (Within Temptation)
I, I've been waiting for someone like you
But now you are slipping away
What have you done now?
Why? Why does Fate make us suffer?
There's a curse between us
Between me and you

10. A Little Over Zero (Elisa)
What shall I do, just to feel
A little over zero, a little over
Now that I'm sadness
Now that I'm weakness
Gonna walk like it's for ever
Gonna walk because it would save me
And my fragility could kill me
Is this the best I can be?
Is this the best I can give?

11. Come Around (Rhett Miller)
I'm gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Unless you come around so come around
So come around so come around
I'm dressed all in blue and I'm remembering you
And the dress you wore when you broke my heart

12.Afterglow (INXS)
Bathed in blue, the walls of my memory divide the thorns from the roses
It's you and the roses

13.Smoke Baby (Hawksley Workman)
And I have never felt
Quite this close to hell
All this rock and roll baby
Only time will tell
But we're young now, having fun now
On the town now, get around now
It's fine for now
But someday we'll settle down
But not now baby

14. I Want You (Rachael Yamagata)
You sat down next to me, like poetry to wine
Out window looked upon a yellow neon sign
I took your hand while you decided what to do
The only kiss, I ever miss, I shared with you
The other cities hold a memory still of a place
But, when I dream of London, I can only see your face

15.Lost (Red)
Your whispers fill these empty halls
I'm searching for you as you call
I'm racing, chasing after you
I need you more

16.Ashes (Embrace)
Now watch me rise up and leave all the ashes you made out of me
When you said that we were wrong, life goes on, just look how long I've agreed

Thanks to the wonderful roxygirl880829, we have a ZIP.

In order to qualify this as a ficmix, here's the fic that was inspired by the above:

Title: Pieces
Author: idealfacade
Word Count:: 730
Rating: PG-13
Summary: It’s unrequited love at its best.
A/N: This was inspired by all the doomed pairings I ship. They seem to have the habit of being that best friends fall for each other but one doesn't realize it/ or realizes too late. My soul thirsts for the many variations of this so it spit out this.

idealfacade @ 2007-12-09T21:13:00

2007-12-10T05:18:50Z

so, there's this love meme going on and, as always, i thought i should fill up my whore quota by asking you to go on and express yourself in the subject that is moi.

because... i just like reading fluffy things about me. aight?

also, i wrote some original fic earlier today. and i know you lot are finding ways to procrastinate, so give that a look and comment, yes?

that is all.

for now.

pages read for essay that counts as final: 1/230

progress? i think so. :D

FIC - PIECES (ORIGINAL FIC)

2007-12-09T18:16:32Z

This is what i do instead of studying for finals/writing an essay that counts as a final (of which I am of the view this link leads you to). muahahaha.

Title: Pieces
Author: idealfacade
Word Count:: 730
Rating: PG-13
Summary: It’s unrequited love at its best.
A/N: This was inspired by all the doomed pairings I ship. They seem to have the habit of being that best friends fall for each other but one doesn't realize it/ or realizes too late. My soul thirsts for the many variations of this so it spit out this.

It’s unrequited love at its best. Blow hard those lips, those words of bliss are meant for the other’s ears but you only seem to hear them. The gusts of wind don’t carry them far so you rely on scribbled notes and stares not too long lest he see.

>>>

Five years past, you thought you’d be over this.

Quotes fly by you, rapid pace, and you laugh as one stutters its way into memory. “These kind of things are a slow flame, they never burn out.”

Sage phrases are a nuisance if they come true because they’re only half-fulfilled promises.

>>>

The worse thing is that you're privy to knowing his chases (and his captures).

Always the spectator and the one that has to impose that false laugh as he comes around. The aloof demeanor you have to force on yourself slowly consumes and tears prick at the corner of your eyes.

“It’s too dusty out here.”

The voiced lies are merely a habit now.

>>>

It’s a terrible cliché, the situation you’re in: close friend falls hard (and fast). You wonder what’s the statistic of this end and whether you’re on the losing side or not.

But the predicament is obvious and this bitter cough has been jammed in your throat for a while. You have the oddest urge to spread your arms and take flight away from here.

But the ghost of his smile will forever chase you, continents be damned.

It’s useless, this, but you can’t stop.

(because it’s a push and tug always with him).

>>>

Act three: he still acts clueless.

Scene two: by now everyone knows.

Their stares are a burden and the sympathy glazed upon their glances is almost too much to bear.

“Time heals all wounds.” it’s tossed out and you were just waiting for that one.

Kiss of death it is and the irony strikes you on how one person can make you feel so miserable and joyous at the same time.

“What do you think he’ll like for his wedding present?”

>>>

In the movies you’ve always felt a sadness for the unknown outcast on the stage. Never did you once think you’d make an encore starring in that role. But it’s something that’s all too natural.

Now, exit stage left.

It’s a lingering wave as your feet drag upon the floor. The dress has a train and is currently gathering dirt, sweep away.

The music is soon a slow echo and it’s just hiccuped gasps from your chest as it starts to hit you. gonegonegone.

Chances are all lost, the turning points that could have been in your hands have been just observed, never acted on... coward, just because you were one craven girl.

But the semi-silence is pitched into hurried stomps and maybe this is the last stop.

“Wait! Wait!”

Breaths are heavy from him and you’re too astonished to do much but gape. His tie is undone and he’s wearing his best, rumpled.

“Don’t you need to be at the reception?” you say.

“I can ask you the same thing.” fast reply.

“Well, there’s that whole I’m not the guest of honor thing, unlike, say you.” it almost sounds normal saying this half-choked in your own stagnant feelings.

“Who says you aren’t?” he steps closer.

“The invitations.”

He gives off a nervous laugh and pulls at his sleeves. “I didn’t have anything to do with them.”

“I would have been surprised if you did.”

This is supposed to be the part where he chuckles but he simply continues on his path towards you and this is becoming too close.

“Where are you going?”

“Away.” Monosyllabic words are your best bet at the moment with him this near.

“Why?” It seems he got the same memo. It’s furrowed brows from him and pursed lips. The shadows stretch and it’s always been too late for you two. Especially today, oh if it hit him today of all days... It's a forbidden thought with the plans already in motion. Goodbyes are to be played, they're only delayed because this part was written last minute.

So it's time for you to give the last of those series of smiles and don’t reach out for his unclasped hand.

“Because.” you hope it says it all and don't you dare meet his eyes.

The spotlight trails after you as his eyes take in your back and the last of your footsteps.

>>>

Feedback?

And yes, there's a ficmix to go with this. It'll probably be up by tomorrow. :D

idealfacade @ 2007-12-08T21:57:00

2007-12-09T06:06:58Z

i have noticed a very important recurring pattern as i reflect upon my lost youth.

one - i am royalty amongst procrastinators. i beat all you amateurs in this, no competition.

two - i have sealed my status every time i have The Big Thing come up in my life.

oh, you know this. The Big Thing is everything academia strives to strip your soul away to. The Big Thing is that project/essay/test that is seemingly all too important.

and yet -- and yet....

I STILL MANAGE A WAY TO FLING MYSELF INTO SOME LOST BIT OF NOSTALGIA EVERY TIME IT COMES MY WAY.

i become sentimental and shit -- brain, do you remember that one tv show i watched as a child? isn't it just a DELIGHTFUL time to see some episodes of it? read fanfic? EMERGE YOURSELF IN ITS FANDOM???

brilliant idea? oh -- don't mind those stacks of books that you have put off weeks to read. you still have two days to complete this assignment. don't worry, you've pulled things out of your ass before, we like the panic.

anxiety is good.

NO IT ISN'T.

this is terrible! i can't pull away from my urges of doing evrything but the productive.

the current culprit? hey arnold.

omg. i will write fanfic (HELGA/ARNOLD FOREVAAAA) before i even start on my Big Essay.

this, i predict.

push my buttons.

2007-11-21T02:02:11Z

Your responses to my last post made me hopeful that at least I have company in crazy-land. Honestly, I'm glad some of you aren't in the closet about still liking them. :D

Taking advice from the pros. ahaa.

So, because of my undying love getting a random revival, I've been checking out my second home (youtube) more than what is normally possible.

But I've already checked out my sanity, so whatevs. Words can't explain how happy this makes me:

lol. the things JC does for Justin

Ah man, they were bbs back then (nevermind I was just a bit older than a fetus in those days).

JuC love, right there. Expect more barrage of youtube!nsync from me. I am never done.

ETA:

Playing Nsynctionary on the Rosie show:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vl7n9qsWFOc&feature=related

Comical! Oh man, this is me the whole time --> :DDDDD

My jaw is going to hurt tomorrow.

I'm doing this tonight/You're probably going to start a fight

2007-11-20T03:44:37Z

omg, I am in such an nsync love mode right now, it's scary. I'm trying to locate all my memorbilia and the twenty plus CDs of pure Nsync imports I acquired during my crazy years. Oh man, I can't find them! I swear I will SPIT if my sister sold my preciousssssssss at a damn swap meet/garage sale. SPIT!

Anyway, the point is, I need to find more people that are going through Nsync withdrawal. I'm sad that the fandom is so dead ~~thanks to the ass that is Justin Timberlake~~ that my frequent haunts of six years ago are gone (RIP nsyncstudio.com). I want to bitch about JT to more than myself, it gets repetitive after a while.

I NEED HELP.

~~and popslash~~

...Which brings me to this:

In "Treat Me Right," which happens to be co-produced by old boy-band rival J.C. Chasez, the boys finally decided to give the piano a rest and mix up the chord progression. With a beat reminiscent of P. Diddy and Keisha Cole's "Last Night," "Treat Me Right" could actually be danced to. This song has more energy than all of the other tracks combined, and sounds like it could be found on their earlier albums. [source]

It was a shock to see that JC Chasez, a former member of rival boy band *NSYNC, had collaborated with McLean on a song. "Unbreakable" is packed with many awesome surprises. "Treat Me Right" has a pretty happy beat, but there's a moment in the pre-chorus where the tone changes and becomes, in a word, scary. To put it simply, this is the part in the song where the sun went behind a cloud. I think it's the most ingenious thing I've heard out of pop music in a long time.

HOLY SHIT, WHAT! WHY DID I NOT KNOW ABOUT THIS SOONER? AN NSYNC AND BSB COLLABORATION???

This is like the apopcalypse or the second coming, guys. Maybe both.

:O

I think pinkbutterflies will be the only one to understand how MINDBLOWING this is. Does anyone have the track? Cynthia, help me in my hour of need?</lj>

ETA: BECAUSE I HAD TO. YOU WILL NEED TO CLICK AND CRY WITH ME.

HERE'S THE LINK IF YOU CAN'T SEE THE EMBED: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qGF9h6hLKqA

NO EXCUSES.

OMG. WHY DID YOU DESTROY THEM JT? WHYYYYYYYYYYY? YOU GUYS WERE SO CUTE TOGETHER. *PINCHES CHEEKS*

IT'S TEARING UP MY HEART. godammit.

idealfacade @ 2007-11-16T08:18:00

2007-11-16T16:21:08Z

I have officially deleted my myspace.

I find it hilarious that you have to leave Cancellation Confirmation Comments. I felt inspired by it and left my mark by replying "adios motherfucker!" I wonder whatever myspace employee receives that would want the drink right afterwards.

Anyway, the point is, I feel closer to maturity already. hahaaa.

BTW, Kristin as Bella is growing on me. Now, I just don't care ~~bc the character is a whiny bitch.~~